Never in a thousand years would I imagine I would be the mom waking up and getting 4 kids ready to go to public school…. a Title I transformation zone public school at that. I used to think public schooling moms didn’t want to be around their kids. I used to pity families who sent their kids away to a building all day. I didn’t understand how a mom could do that. I feared what adults and kids could do to my babies. I wanted the very best learning for my kids to best prepare them for this world they are growing up in.
And I honestly, don’t know how we got here except that He gave me 6 kids with various needs all really close together and put a vision in our hearts for marginalized communities and a desire to take risks when it comes to loving our neighbors and community.
All I know is that over the course of a few weeks everything changed…. especially what our mornings look like 5 days a week.
I still wrestle with fears, and if we are potentially messing up our kids by having them in tough situations at times. I know I’d be less angsty and frustrated if I felt more in control of what happened in my kids lives during the day. I never thought that I would be investing my timeby going to school board meetings, meeting with reporters, drawing close to teachers to hear their stories, figuring out ways to get to know and empower parents.
I also never dreamed about the level of gospel conversations we’d be having with our children and the character we would be cultivating and the love we would see forming in their hearts for a community that they are fast becoming a part of. I never dreamed about the Kingdom work being done by believers in classes, the determination of trained educators who see the value in kids so many have left behind, and the relationships I’d cherish because we are in this struggle together.
In the past few years my understanding of faith and how to live faithfully has undergone a process of deconstruction and reconstruction, yet we have found that Christ is Faithful! He is in the margins! He draws near to the hurting and the oppressed! He gives joy even in the fight for justice and the one who gives it meaning! He is the one who goes before us and behind us and He is doing powerful work in the walls of Title I schools everywhere! So our prayer has become one of faithfulness…..may we always be faithful to follow Him into hard and risky places.
Great is Thy faithfulness, O God my Father
There is no shadow of turning with Thee
Thou changest not, Thy compassions, they fail not
As Thou hast been, Thou forever will be
Pardon for sin and a peace that endureth
Thine own dear presence to cheer and to guide
Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow
Blessings all mine, with ten thousand beside
Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me