Well it finally came in. I drove by on Thursday and saw it for the first time and it hit me hard. I cried…well wailed more like it. I'm glad I was alone, although if anyone was in the graveyard at the time I'm sure they would understand… I mean if they are there I'm sure they have had their crying days there as well. It's hard going there. Even when I don't cry I still am left in a funk all day. funk's are difficult because they are normally not emotions and feelings and moods you can explain verbally and they aren't ones that are even expressible through crying and such… I guess that's what makes them funky. So I just endure the pain and the confusion and try not to take it out on others around me and go to bed early. Then in my experience, I find that His mercies are new every morning and I am greeted by a new day that although doesn't bring an absence of sadness it does bring opportunities for joy.
Oakwood Cemetery is a beautiful cemetery and we are so glad we chose to have Asher buried there. His grave is only about 200 feet away from where we live and he is in the children's section and so it's a reminder when we go that this section is special because it's unusual/unnatural for little ones to die. It's also helpful in remembering that we aren't the only ones who are going through this loss. It helps me to pray for others when I go. I'm so thankful that God made our souls eternal, We have so much more than this short vapor of life to look forward to.
You make known to me the path of life;
in your presence there is fullness of joy;
at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
So walk with me and come see where Ashers earthly resting place is. This is Oakwood Cemetery in Downtown Raleigh. NC Senator Jesse Helms was buried here earlier this summer. It is open from 6am to 6pm. Asher is in the childrens section on Hickory st. There is a weeping willow as you exit the cemetery that seems so comforting to me for some reason… almost like nature is morning with me and longing for their completion one day as well. And I do love the stately Oak trees here as well… they no doubt have been here for many years and have seen many come to rest in this beautiful cemetery.