I haven't had much to type about the past few days. I've been on a rollercoaster of hormones and emotions lately as my body adjusts to being back to normal and all that entails. So I've been trying to just hold on and know that next week I will be in a brighter more sane place of hormone activity.
I did want to post this excerpt from Valley of Vision a puritain collection of prayers. Valley of Vision has been so helpful to me lately as my mind wants to think a thousand thoughts a minute and not focus for anything. I've been praying these prayers and I"m in awe of how these writers can truly capture the cries of my heart with such amazing prose. Here is the prayer that I've read over and over this week.
Lord, High and Holy. Meek and Lowly,
Thou hast brought me to the valley of vision,
where I live in the depths but see thee in the heights;
hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold thy glory.
Let me learn by paradox
that the way down is the way up,
that to be low is to be high,
that the broken heart is the healed heart,
that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,
that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,
that to have nothing is to possess all,
that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
that to give is to receive,
that the valley is the place of vision.
Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from the deepest wells,
and the deeper the wells the brighter thy stars shine;
Let me find thy light in my darkness,
thy life in my death,
that joy in my sorrow,
thy grace in my sin,
thy riches in my poverty
thy glory in my valley.