I, (Dan) have always been one to embrace with all that I am. If I love something I do not love it half way. This has been true of my many sins but it has also ben true of the numerous ways God grants it to me to display his glory. I love my wife, she has and continues to be a gift of grace to me. So it should come as no particular surprise that when Casey told me we where pregnant I fell in love again. This love was different, I had never felt like this before. I was both excited and extremely anxious over our baby's life. It was too good to be true. How could God give to me, an intense sinner such a gift? Something must be wrong. There is no good theology in this, just honesty.
Could this be grace? Love should bring Joy and happiness. To love is to run the risk of suffering. I find this idea to be so true. Those who love much will face suffering in this world. To those who are without belief in the purposes of a sovereign God, there is still suffering but it bears the imprint of vanity. Nicholas Woltersorff (Philosophy, Yale) says that all his life he had been taught to love the world as a gift, to love God through the world. This meant to love his wife, his sons, plants, nature, culture, learning. However, he says it set him up for suffering. It did not tell him that an invitation to love is an invitation to suffer. He had to find this out the hard way and so did I. But one amazing point he makes shook me today as I needed it to. God loves the World, and He himself has suffered on behalf of the world, and when we suffer He suffers. God loves with suffering love. This brings me comfort to know that sovereign love is also suffering love. So I choose to love with the guarantee that in the future it will mean more suffering, and with that suffering a surpassing Joy and longing for home.